Just today, as I was getting out of bed, I looked down preparing to make it up, and thought about the person who lay down last night, but won’t be getting up this morning.
Just today, as I made my normal cup of coffee, I took a sip, enjoying the warm taste of it on my tongue, and thought about the person who unbeknownst to them, at that same moment, was tasting coffee for the last time ever!
Just today, I took a short trip to Alabama, looking out the window, I marveled at all of the trees and land, acres and acres of land. Some with FORESTS of trees, some with trees scattered here and there, and I thought about my ancestors, who for some-those trees were the last thing they ever saw.
Just today, as I listened to my favorite song, eyes closed, drinking in how good it felt to my soul, how free it makes me feel, how the words come from the artist’s mouth, through my speakers, float through the air of my car, landing on the perfect spot of my eardrum, tap dancing their way to the part of my brain that wears headphones, and listens for the meaning of the words. The melody hypnotizing my limbs, making them move in unison even when I try to resist. Creating a natural high that floats me off into deep corners of the universe where no one else can bother me. And I thought about the person who was hearing that same song, not knowing it would be the last thing they ever hear.
Just today, as I got in my car, crank it up, put it in drive. The feeling of the gear shift move when I tell it to. How normal it is is to just sit in this mobile piece of metal and go wherever I want. And I thought about the person who was starting their car, pulling out of their driveway, headed out to work or to just run errands, or maybe regular Sunday leisure. And though it was rather routine to just GO when they needed to, this would be the last time.
Just today, as I got home, fixed me a drink to sip on as I cooked me something for dinner, I FaceTimed my daughter-in-law, so that I could see my grand babies!! Laughing, playing, giving and receiving love through the video, telling them that their nana loves them more than anything in this world! I thought of the grandmother saying that for the last time to her grand babies.
Just tonight, I showered, did my normal skin routine, my normal mirror check for new wrinkles, to see if my eyes have started to droop anymore, new skin sag, dancing naked a little. Put on my robe, topped my drink off once more, turned the tv in my bedroom to my favorite show, pulled back my bed covers, thanked my ancestors, God, and the universe for keeping me safe for another day. I looked down at my bed, and wondered if it was Just Today?
Because who knows if I’ll be here tomorrow?